I awoke with a start. My right hip flexor was locked up. I was in agonizing pain.
It was 2 weeks after I started my one on one Yoga work with Douglass.
“Ahhhhhhhhh!!” again I moaned as I tried to move.
“What is it? Are you Ok?” my girlfriend stammered also waking from a deep sleep.
“Yeah,…I’m fine. It’s just a cramp. I will be fine.”
I crawled out of our bed and crawled on the floor out of the bedroom into the living room.
“You’re not Ok!” she called after me.
“Yeah, I’m fine. It is just a cramp.” I whispered back from the living room floor as I lay on my back pulling my right knee to my chest. Tears were coming from my eyes. My head was shaking side to side. There was no connection to the emotion. It was my STUFF attacking me in my sleep. Why was it doing this? What the hell was going on?
It was 3:30 a.m. I was due to get up at 5 a.m. for I had a 6 a.m. client in Westchester. How the hell was I going to work this cramp out and get to work on time? I pulled both knees into my chest and rolled my bent legs in my hip sockets.
“AHHHHHHHHH SHIT!” My lower back cramped again. My head now was rocking back and forth as if my body was saying NO.
AS IF MY BODY WAS SAYING NO?
I was hyperventilating and again the tears were falling. I crawled into the bathroom, still in great pain, my body shaking. I turned on the tub.
“Are you OK?” from the bedroom.
“Yes, I’m fine. I’m fine. It is just a cramp. I will be fine.”
I crawled into the bathtub, then laying on my side in 6 inches of hot water I bent my knees and reached back and grabbed my ankles (like doing the YOGA Bow Asana only on my side) and I lay there crying, the shaking from my head almost splashing the water out of the tub.
I stayed in the tub for almost an hour, rolling and shaking. It started to release.
I pulled myself out, managed to dry myself off, and then, back in my underwear I crawled back out to the living room where I continued to stretch. I needed to be out of there in less than 30 minutes.
My girlfriend, probably hearing the sound of my head shaking side to side on the floor, got out of bed and joined me in the living room.
“Are you OK?”
“Yeah, just a cramp. Ummm, could you just put your foot on my pelvis here?
“Can you just help me stretch this out? Just put your foot on the left side of my pelvis here.”
“Are you Ok?”
“Yeah, just put your foot here.” (Pointing toward the top left part of my pelvis.)
She placed her foot on the left top part of my pelvis as I held my right knee to my chest.
“Now push down, hard. Step on me.”
“Are you Ok?” I could see the love and great concern in her eyes.
“Yes, I’m fine. This will help. Please.”
She pressed down with her foot. I held my neck tightly so that it wouldn’t shake. My head quivered slightly. I could feel a burning sensation through my lower back.
“Are you Ok?”
“Yeah, Yeah, that’s good, that really helps. Now can you do the other side?”
Needless to say, I was able to get to work on time and function, still in some pain, but I hid it well.
But I didn’t hide it well enough from my girlfriend.
She was scared.